Dreams, contd.

Okay...

So after I wrote that last entry, I got a humorous post from a friend on facebook. Apparently, she had a dream about me back in my old neighborhood in BG. I was having a yard sale, I was pregnant, and moving back in with my parents. Grrrrreat.

So, some dreams, I would love to come true! Ashley's, however, I pray never does! :)

Do you ever have a dream that seems so real, that when you wake up you feel like it just happened yesterday?

I had a dream like that last night. It freaked me out a little because it was so real! It was about someone from my past. The last time I saw this person, things were awkward and uncomfortable and full of bad feelings. Not at all a reflection on the friendship that we had built. But in my dream, I was hanging out with this person like we did in the old days...talking, and laughing a lot! The sun was shining, and we were at a park, although I didn't recognize the exact place. I can remember almost the entire conversation. We talked about building a bridge to repair our bond, shared stories about what we'd been up to, talked about our families, and sarted to bond all over again. Then, when we went to leave, we hugged, and I woke up. I could feel the hug, and even smell my friend. It was real, it creeped me out. But, in my dream we talked through the issues we had been having, and it made me feel like there is still hope to fix things of the past in real life.

After I woke up, I went for a good, long run and then to the Y for a workout. The entire time, I couldn't get that dream out of my head. Something so simple, yet it meant so much to me. It was about a conversation, a moment, that I have wanted so badly to have in real life. It made me start to wonder...can dreams show you how you things could have been? Or should have been? Or what about maybe giving you a glimpse into the future?! All I know is that if dreams mean anything, or can come true, this simple dream becoming reality could bring a peace of mind to me that I haven't had for months. So maybe, just maybe, dreams really can come true. :)

Just BE

Be strong
Be strong-willed and
be strong hearted.
In your weaknesses,
find your strengths.
Use them!
Reap the benefits
of all your strengths.
And never let Anyone
take them away from you
Be strong in following
your dreams
and your path
Be strong in your gains
And be strong enough to admit your mistakes.
Then, be strong enough to correct them.
Be strong in every aspect
but don't ever let strength
become a weakness.
And, always, always, be the strongest
version of yourself.



~Some of the best advice I've received. :)

Flushed Down

A look back at a poem I wrote my junior year of high school...haha, oh the days...



Flushed Down


At 17, depressed
Dreams aren't within my reach
And I am told
they never will be.

I stand, alone
on my own two feet
About to fall,
unsteady.
I raise my head to the black sky
shuddering
screaming for
someone to help me
someone to comfort me
someone to lead me
someone to love me.

There are two parents
Her-I love.
Yet, she wants me to be what I am not.
Him-I hate.
More concerned with masturbation than communication.
Bruises and scars on the heart and physical body
are all I have.

All of the pain chokes me in bed at night.
I always pray for tomorrow to be better.

Yet, it may never come.



This was written like I said, my junior year of high school after we had a bad family incident. It goes to show that everything impacts you more than you think...

Dreams

You know,

saying, "Follow your dreams,"

is easier said than done.



Dreaming a dream,

having drempt a dream,

all your life

That's the easy part.



Sacrifice,

Drive,

Confidence,

Strong-will.

I search for these.



Hoping your dreams will one day just fall in your lap

1 in a million

Making dreams happen,

better possibility,

but is still rare.

Where to begin?

What to do?

It's hard to know.

I think dreams should come with an instruction manual!! :)

For thought...

Love for Enemies

27 “But to you who are willing to listen, I say, love your enemies! Do good to those who hate you. 28 Bless those who curse you. Pray for those who hurt you. 29 If someone slaps you on one cheek, offer the other cheek also. If someone demands your coat, offer your shirt also. 30 Give to anyone who asks; and when things are taken away from you, don’t try to get them back. 31 Do to others as you would like them to do to you.32 “If you love only those who love you, why should you get credit for that? Even sinners love those who love them! 33 And if you do good only to those who do good to you, why should you get credit? Even sinners do that much! 34 And if you lend money only to those who can repay you, why should you get credit? Even sinners will lend to other sinners for a full return.35 “Love your enemies! Do good to them. Lend to them without expecting to be repaid. Then your reward from heaven will be very great, and you will truly be acting as children of the Most High, for he is kind to those who are unthankful and wicked. 36 You must be compassionate, just as your Father is compassionate.Do Not Judge Others37 “Do not judge others, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn others, or it will all come back against you. Forgive others, and you will be forgiven. 38 Give, and you will receive. Your gift will return to you in full—pressed down, shaken together to make room for more, running over, and poured into your lap. The amount you give will determine the amount you get back.”Luke 6:27-38

ooh, ooh
come on come on
ooh ooh
come on come on
you have got to move on
this is not the you i know
this isn't real
it's just all you can feel
and that's the way that feelings go
and whether or not it's right or wrong
you'll do what you will do
but when the cloud in the sky starts to pour in your life
its just a storm you're braving well
don't tell yourself
you can't lean on someone
cause we all need saving sometimes
say what you will
but the time that we fill
while we are on the Earth
should not be alone
we were meant to be known
you make me what i'm worth
but i can't keep you from yourself
you'll do what you will do
when the cloud in the sky starts to pour in your life
it's just a storm you're braving well
don't tell yourself
you can't lean on someone else
cause we all need saving
and i don't know
why it has to be this way
and i don't knowthe cure
but please believe someone else
has felt this before
when the cloud in the sky starts to pour in your life
it's just a storm you're braving well
don't tell yourself
you can't lean on someone else
cause we all need saving
we all need saving sometimes sometimes


Heard this song today...and it spoke to me! I hope you all look it up and listen to it!