Another chapter closes

There's almost nothing more disappointing when someone turns out to be nothing like you thought they were. You can spend everyday with someone, and they can still turn on you. I hope I have never done that to anyone! That's not a good thing.

Maybe I'm naive. Or gullible. But I tend to believe what people tell me. If someone says they care, I believe they care. If they say they will take time to get over you, I believe that they will respect you enough to do so. If someone says "I love you" I believe them. Then, to turn around and have them say, "Why would you have believed me when I said that?!" Are you kidding me? Who does that?

I am honestly starting to feel like I might lose faith in people. I have been trying so hard not to lose my faith. To not lose my trust. To not put up walls. But sometimes...it gets to be too much.



For you...

To leave this tired place
I am tired
and you are the face.
Miss the little things-you say? Ha.
Go for it...
And try...
To Remember.

I fell asleep with you and dreamt, but you woke with her and lived.
My scent erased by her hair
My voice unheard over hers
My touch vanished by her hands
My smile shadowed by her gaze.
Go for it...
And try...
To Remember.

For years I dreaded moments, change
The times and scenes where
everything else mattered.
Go for it...
And try...
To Rememb...

Wait-
A character in a movie
once gave you a glance back,
but reality hovered by your side.
The hourglass has turned.
Go for it...
and try...
To Remem...

You say you tried
But months without you really there?
Thousands of hours passed by...
Not even a few could be spared?
Go for it...
And try...
To Reme...

A year from now my name will
No longer be known by your lips
My face only a blurred vision of
A once past childlike dream.
Go for it...
And try...
To Re...

What we said nothing could change
Was changed by you, and you alone.
You say it was changed by me, but I told you how I felt.
My world would have been happy,
But you removed yourself, I did not push you out.

Go for it...
And try...
To...

Remember who?
What are you talking about?
Those words you say are untrue,
I know not of who you speak of.
Meet the future, Face to face.
I once believed you.
I once believed IN you.
My father,
My family,
Even some friends,
Let me down.
A best friend?
What's that mean to you?
Not you.
Now you've let me down, too.

I believed you were different,
I believed you were true.
I believed everything,
just because you were YOU.

Now?
Empty handed.
Empty hearted as well.
With nothing to show,
And no story to tell.
There is no happy ending
Only heartache and sadness.
No re-takes or repeats
Do-overs or more chances
There is no happy ending-you see?
You said so yourself.

GO FOR IT...
AND TRY...
TO REMEMBER.

You can't.
And you won't.

But I remember all too well.